Saturday, July 11, 2009

rmb the time

Saturday, July 11, 2009
*cough cough*

ok secret's out, i woke up wed morning with a swollen tonsil. and it was 7.00am. late for school. sleepy. irritated by the throat. solution? sleep in. XD til bout 10.30.

i really need to start stepping up my game.. all i have are empty resolutions. i live on empty resolutions. gotta make it work... grr...

currently chilling out with some canadian bahai youths. man they're wacky. it's all too goody-american-ish.. me like. stupid move by the gov to make Math and Science in malay AGAIN. hopefully my sister wouldn't be affected. or else. rugi.

gotta work hard and earn big bucks (while serving of course) to ensure my kids get btr education... elsewhr... international schools... kinda tempting... hmm...

oh yea, my new cpu arrived so cheers to the revival of my blog. no worries of leaving work half done anymore. waiting for jude to come online to dota one of these days.

went thru some old pics. mooncake festival dance. prolly one of those events that i'll remember for life. for many reasons... hmm... 'last' related to it. dun bother decoding what i said. it's complicated. need to rant out.




o.O braces moments. kinda miss wearing em. miss hating em.

oh well, i've come to accept the fact that some things are too broken to be fixed. maybe what it already is, is the best it could get.

Punch out,
Nick

Monday, July 6, 2009

look wht flew in from down under

Monday, July 6, 2009
ahhh~ i got my parcel from australia. happy happy me! no, i did not get it for free, i had to pay for it. friggin expensive. but it is soooooooo worth it. =)

uplifting chants and songs. ahhh~ gonna power play the tunes while doing revision (provided i do do revision lar heh)


ming shuuuuuuu!!! dun u just wanna get ur hands on those cds??? =D u want a copy, u better leave a comment and stop being the silent reader. muahahaha! or else, no cd for u. i'm serious. !!!

rereading the 6th book, i felt as if i have never read the book before. everything seems hazy to me. maybe cos i was younger back then when i read the book. many words i couldnt understand. i'll make it a note to reread twilight saga. reading it the 2nd time shud be... hmm... a new adventure...


not forgetting the living parcel tht flew in from australia. one thing i've learned~ to have friends, we must first be a friend. ahhh. so corny. XD

btw the manggo tree in front of my house tengah berbuah ni. all the manggo sap, in lay man's term, the sticky-hard-to-come-out-once-kena-my-car-getah, keeps dripping on my car. annoying i tell u. stain my precious.


this week's gonna be exciting i suppose. having a bday cum farewell makan for guantor besok. then meeting a Canadian Bahai family from China tmr as well. Wed, there will be senam robics in school, in the evening. good time to get a tan and dance around. XD

brotha from anatha matha

Punch out,
Nick

Sunday, July 5, 2009

chai sim

Sunday, July 5, 2009
wooosh~ it's been a long break. doesnt imply that i completely dumped my blog!! i just... had... some internal debate. i did wanna blog on few stuff; in which some would think i'm being a stuck up ass, or some are just mere hate posts whereby i dun wanna go there... too... sensitive.. wait til a time comes (in gazillion yrs) when i make this blog private, then uh huh~ hate posts are definitely on the way.

many stuff to say, so little time to do so. cos my freaking cpu is dying bit by bit. it crashes all of a sudden and restarts itself. random crashes here and there. dun worry, i managed to get dad to fork out cash for a new cpu. thank gawd it wasn't such a hassle. that i'm grateful for. =D

chatting on messenger has become so... black and white... cos i duno wtf is wrong with my messenger, that it cant view emoticons. even the default smiley ':)' is seen as texts instead of the yellow smiling bubble head. maybe that's one of the reasons why i'm being so... passive in chats lately.

though i'm uber happy SNSD (korean girl group) has a new single - Tell Me Your Wish. freaking hot wei..... and Wonder Girls debut in the US with the english version of Nobody (sounds teeny weeny bit weird la).

oh oh, and i decided to re-read my Harry Potter Half Blood Prince, cos i dun wanna be completely blur during the movie, and then when the movie ends i can flame it by saying they miss out many important parts or twisted the plot to make it shorter. gawd i love bitching. plus watching the movie this time is special cos it's a date wif my bud from aussie. XD

speaking of which, that asshole shud be on the plane right now. he'll be home soon. though i sounded much much much more excited in getting the cds which i tumpang him to buy for me. lol. he'll definitely make hell for me once he sees me.

ahh... absence does make the heart grows fonder. (in some cases la) though Chai has been far far away, and we seldom chat cos of our separate lifestyles, but i know i could always count on him. and he's my outlet to bitching bout shit i couldnt hold to myself anymore. keeps me sane. XD.

during his last day of school, before he left for Aussie. walked around the school to reminisce the good old days. used to sit with him at that exact same spot in Form 2. =) (we were teary eyed)

we bought matching t-shirts. cos it was cheap. and a crazy spur of the moment thing.

few days before he left kua...

one of his visits back in 2008 i think... McD had that yucky Blueberry flavoured sundae which tasted like cough medicine.


anyhoo!! i'll be meeting up with him for lunch besok, kenot wait dah. then i gotta drive him back. but at least i get to flaunt my driving license in his face. which reminds me, gotta go clean my car. or else he got something to use against me. ooooh nooo!

Nick signing off.

Monday, June 22, 2009

utterless

Monday, June 22, 2009
memories from last weekend.










who knew posting up pictures without typing much could be... hmm... relaxing... but nah, i wont be doing much of these posts. worry la ppl grab my pics... apparently someone... ehem... grabbed a pic of mine 2 posts ago and posted on his blog...


Nick signing off~

Saturday, June 20, 2009

perfecto

Saturday, June 20, 2009
i believe perfectionism is a very important aspect in life.

perfectionism gives us that 'drive', that 'push' to be better. to score better. to do well. i mean, you could be from the last class in school, and be the first boy. and you're contented with that? compared to the last boy in the first class, the difference in huge. with perfectionism comes the will to better one's self.

most people say it's the journey that counts, not the result. my opinion? you're just saying it cos you're gawd damn lazy to strive for perfection. yes i admit the journey is important. but if the journey is bout having fun and not putting effort and end up giving a horrible performance, then wtf is that journey for. to me, it's meaningless. cos you are not matured enough to set the priorities.

like, not studying and having fun throughout your life, and end up working as a garbage truck worker. you should be happy right? since the journey counts. u had fun during your teens, ie, the journey. the result doesnt matter. makes sense? (not demoralizing the garbage truck workers. respect them fully for cleaning up our mess)

for instance, during the LCC dance practice, i loved it so much because all 5 of us, ester, anngie, junmei, chunyian and i practiced like shit everyday to master the dance. even though exhausting, but the contention was there. for me. and i especially loved junmei's attitude cos she had to learn the routine in bout 2 or 3 days. and she kept practicing and asking us to help her. that's perfection.

i mean, yes, everyone has different degrees of perfectionism in them. how much they're willing to commit. but, if you are in a team, and your team is doing well, except for you, i expect that person to step up his game and work harder to perfect whatever mistakes he's making. cos your imperfections jeopardizes the whole team's effort. cos at the end of the day, to the audience, a perfect performance is what they see, whether the journey was meaningful or not, they dont freaking care.

maybe i am a little too.. hmm... aggresive when it comes to perfection. but that's just the way i was raised. getting 99 for Add Math in form 4 wasnt good enough for my dad. getting 3rd was never good enough for my mum. though i don't blame them for being that way. because, they push me to work harder. i push myself to work harder. so that's just the way i am. that sometimes i hate my performances cos i dun feel they're good.

even if i know things are impossible. not achievable. and though i complain bout it. but my conscience keeps pushing me to work for it. though i know it'll end up in vain. but somehow i fight... a losing war. but it's ok. cos at least i knew i worked hard for it. now here's when the journey counts dammit!

every team needs a perfectionist cos that person pushes the others to strive. though he may be hated, but i think it's crucial. cos when the team performs, it'll be because of that sole person. in my opinion la heh. if u feel otherwise, then so be it.

u noe, i think this is a completely useless post. i mean, what i feel and think, it's hard to put it in words. just penning down my thoughts due to an event that happened earlier cos some people just couldn't set their priorities. not that i was being bossy but it was our only practice since months. and we gotta perform it tomorrow. in front of a House member. it's huge. to me. i mean, if it's a big thing, what's so wrong with putting up a perfect performance. if you're gonna say it's the journey that matters, then i think we shouldnt perform. period.

of course, not everything is about perfection. but if you know the priorities, or have gone through certain events that just piss you off, then you'll get what i mean.

proof-reading this post will cause the perfectionist in me to be upset bout this post, so im just gonna post it up and get done with it. if you dont like what i'm saying, silently leave this blog thank you very much.
 
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