i believe perfectionism is a very important aspect in life.
perfectionism gives us that 'drive', that 'push' to be better. to score better. to do well. i mean, you could be from the last class in school, and be the first boy. and you're contented with that? compared to the last boy in the first class, the difference in huge. with perfectionism comes the will to better one's self.
most people say it's the journey that counts, not the result. my opinion? you're just saying it cos you're gawd damn lazy to strive for perfection. yes i admit the journey is important. but if the journey is bout having fun and not putting effort and end up giving a horrible performance, then wtf is that journey for. to me, it's meaningless. cos you are not matured enough to set the priorities.
like, not studying and having fun throughout your life, and end up working as a garbage truck worker. you should be happy right? since the journey counts. u had fun during your teens, ie, the journey. the result doesnt matter. makes sense? (not demoralizing the garbage truck workers. respect them fully for cleaning up our mess)
for instance, during the LCC dance practice, i loved it so much because all 5 of us, ester, anngie, junmei, chunyian and i practiced like shit everyday to master the dance. even though exhausting, but the contention was there. for me. and i especially loved junmei's attitude cos she had to learn the routine in bout 2 or 3 days. and she kept practicing and asking us to help her. that's perfection.
i mean, yes, everyone has different degrees of perfectionism in them. how much they're willing to commit. but, if you are in a team, and your team is doing well, except for you, i expect that person to step up his game and work harder to perfect whatever mistakes he's making. cos your imperfections jeopardizes the whole team's effort. cos at the end of the day, to the audience, a perfect performance is what they see, whether the journey was meaningful or not, they dont freaking care.
maybe i am a little too.. hmm... aggresive when it comes to perfection. but that's just the way i was raised. getting 99 for Add Math in form 4 wasnt good enough for my dad. getting 3rd was never good enough for my mum. though i don't blame them for being that way. because, they push me to work harder. i push myself to work harder. so that's just the way i am. that sometimes i hate my performances cos i dun feel they're good.
even if i know things are impossible. not achievable. and though i complain bout it. but my conscience keeps pushing me to work for it. though i know it'll end up in vain. but somehow i fight... a losing war. but it's ok. cos at least i knew i worked hard for it. now here's when the journey counts dammit!
every team needs a perfectionist cos that person pushes the others to strive. though he may be hated, but i think it's crucial. cos when the team performs, it'll be because of that sole person. in my opinion la heh. if u feel otherwise, then so be it.
u noe, i think this is a completely useless post. i mean, what i feel and think, it's hard to put it in words. just penning down my thoughts due to an event that happened earlier cos some people just couldn't set their priorities. not that i was being bossy but it was our only practice since months. and we gotta perform it tomorrow. in front of a House member. it's huge. to me. i mean, if it's a big thing, what's so wrong with putting up a perfect performance. if you're gonna say it's the journey that matters, then i think we shouldnt perform. period.
of course, not everything is about perfection. but if you know the priorities, or have gone through certain events that just piss you off, then you'll get what i mean.
proof-reading this post will cause the perfectionist in me to be upset bout this post, so im just gonna post it up and get done with it. if you dont like what i'm saying, silently leave this blog thank you very much.
o.O braces moments. kinda miss wearing em. miss hating em.
